I had a mini break-down last night for several reasons and I came to a lot of realizations about myself...
Without getting into much detail, I think I need to hide away for awhile, take a mini self vacation for a day and a night by myself and really analyze who I am, what I want, and how to conduct myself in the future in front of friends, colleagues, and in the industry.
I feel as if I have 10x more insecurities and flaws than the person next door and my goal right now is to work on them become a better person for myself so I can be a better friend, daughter, colleague, and role model.
I feel like I'm losing myself and I need to find God on my journey to the other side.
It's always helpful to get away for a while. I hope you get better!
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Good for you Ellie, what a lot of people don't realize that no matter our intentions there are some paths on this earth that God doesn't want us to take. So many times we justify our actions but deep down we know that it is not a path to God even if we mean to do great things on it but a path farther away from him.
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ReplyDeleteEllie, life isn't that serious. Take it one day at a time. Even when you runaway, all your problems will manage to still follow you. A mini self vacation may help, but it's a temporary solution to a bigger problem. You're trying to get into an industry where you can't let your insecurities get to you. Own them. You are beautiful- inside and out. I say that and I don't even know you.
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