Dear readers,
I haven't been on this blog for awhile, I'm so sorry about that. I've been busy and when it's time to come home and do some down time, I'm so exhausted I plop on the bed and sleep.
I think love is a crock of bull. I'm sorry for using the slang curse word "shit" to describe how I feel about love, but there's no other way to explain it. I don't know if it's because I've been in 3 failed relationships with men who either don't know what they want, how to treat a girl, or have a temper problem but I'm beginning to think maybe it's me that makes each individual to leave me the way they do.
A break-up isn't ever easy, and right now it's certainly not, but to be frank, it makes me never want to give myself to another idiot again. I'm jaded from this depressing pattern of fervent love in the beginning and then dying interest at the end.
I never thought YOU'd make me feel this way, but good job because ya did. I get your situation but I was hoping you'd do it the honorable way.
Today, love is not on my side and I don't ever want it to come my way unless it's ready to conquer all.
-Ellie
This probably sounds creepy but I don't even have a blogspot but I check your blogs everyday just to make sure you update...it's like you're my "invisible" friend lol I just want to say I support you in all the things you've done so keep it going! I always watch your youtube videos too! I wish I can have a passion as strong as you have! I just want to drop by and say something positive because this obviously is not the happiest post so yeah =) <3
ReplyDeleteI just got into a relationship with a man who I don't have strong feelings for. But I am staying with him to make him happy because he is a nice guy. I may or may not have feelings for an idiot who I have loved for over a year.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, this is my first relationship and I am terrified that one day he'll wake up and feel differently about me. We are in love now, but what does it matter in the long run. He is my friend so maybe that is why I don't want to hurt him. I like being with him though. I am a confused mess.
It's okay, Ellie. Love will find you. I know it all sounds cliches but you have to wait for love. Right now, just concentrate on your dreams. Start gradually and pretty soon you'll see your life taking a turn for the better.
By the way, I think you're awesome. Funny, too. You always make me laugh. Just do you, girl.
ellie are you ok? :(
ReplyDeletei feel the same way but love is out there i think once we find out who we are in God and what His purpose our for us, love comes as a part of that plan. So be strong.
ReplyDeletesorry ellie, you are very talented and beautiful. and you got to understand that I"m 29 and I understand. But you got to think of it as a learning experiences. I have gotten stronger every relationship that has not workout the way I wanted. And know at 29 I make less mistake in picking the girl I'm with. And I'm sure you will soon, see the flaws in men from the beginning, and ask those important question and see those important sign in the man you are interested in. You got to stay away from the mistake you made in the pass. Hope this help a bit :)
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